I’m writing this because  I never got closure. There are things I wish you knew and that our relationship had a huge impact on what I have become. I was your first girlfriend, you didn’t know how to act. At first I thought you did everything right, you never let me down or gave me a reason to doubt you and I’m thankful for that. But you need to know that in order to get something, you have to be willing to give in return.

Your life revolves around you, your family and your hobby. You never put me first and when I needed you the most, you weren’t there for me. I was never able to communicate my feelings to you because you shut me down. It makes me wonder if you ever even loved me as a person or was I just someone you were used to spending time with. I don’t feel I ever got enough of appreciation from you. I was always there for you, putting your needs first and maybe that was the mistake I made. I should have focused on other things but at the same time, I wanted to give you my everything because I truly cared about you. You probably never even think about what went wrong but I still do. I blamed myself for failing so much until I realised it takes two. I respect you a lot and I wish you the best.

This summer I met someone so special and caring and I have found happiness again. This time it’s different, he makes me feel the way I could have never imagined. It’s amazing to feel appreciated and it’s great to have someone who does not question my choices and is able to talk to me about anything. He gives me confidence and he makes me want to be a better person. He is selfless and shows affection. His little gestures make me fell for him more and more each day. We can go for sushi and have a glass of wine or two on a Monday evening without stressing about it too much.

You have also found someone new and I hope you are happy. Just remember to learn something from what we had and be more open. Be there for her, listen, show affection and live a little. Your life will be so much better if you let go of your strict routines just once in a while. I sometimes miss you because you were my best friend. I miss the times when you still cared and made me feel I was worth it. Don’t forget that I will always remember you as a good guy who has to learn how to show emotions. Wish you all the best, Jules