Dear J,

It’s been over 2 months since I saw you last. You’re far away now. I told you to never come back, and I thought I meant it when I said it. Did I? You were the only person who ever really hurt me, but I never gave up on you. Each time you came back I was willing to drop everything to see you. But you never were able to commit to me fully.

When I drove away after seeing you last I cried so much. I had finally realized we’ll never be able to be happy together. We are wrong for each other. You barely spoke to me. I didn’t know what to ask you.

I’m with someone else now. He asked me if I’d leave him for you, and I didn’t know what to say.

I miss you all the time.

I really truly hope you are well, that someday you will be happy enough to give to someone the way you never could give to me.

Me