For weeks, I couldn’t bear the thought of “goodbye forever”.  I wanted so badly to appeal to you.  I wrote many, much longer letters before this one.  Each detailing a case for you to at least consider friendship as a posibility.  However, each argument I could possibly make as to why was followed by it’s own counter-argument as to why not.

The truth is, it doesn’t matter how I feel, or what I can or cannot bear.  You have decided this is what is best for you, and I understand why this is so.  Doing anything other than allowing you to make your choice is disrespectful and selfish, truly.  To some degree, I feel an apology was pointless.  Yes, it’s good for one’s spirit and peace of mind to apologize to those they have wronged, but simply appearing to apologize could cause more problems than an apology would ever possibly solve.

You could have very well been better off had I never contacted you, or apologized in the first place.  The reality is an apology solves nothing, nor does it make anything better.

With that in mind, I apologize for disturbing your life by breaking the silence for my petty apology.  Thank you for entertaining my selfishness one last time in allowing me the opportunity to apologize.  Thank you for your kindness in allowing me to apologize to you directly.  Thank you for your time and consideration for reading my apologies.  Thank you for being kind while reality sunk in.

As long as you never stop putting in the best of your effort, you will almost certainly be happy with the life you’ve taken steps to build for yourself.  I hope your dreams and efforts never betray you.

      With a heavy heart,

      Goodbye