Sometimes I wonder about a lot of things.

I already know how this sort of thing goes, but somehow the pieces of you never fit into the puzzle before.  How things were always vaguely familiar, but I could never quite put my finger on why.  Where the shift came from.  For a split second, I saw it all about a month ago, but my thesis has solidified since then.  I have my answers, for once.

I could say I was used, although that’s not entirely accurate.  Just as it’s not entirely accurate to say it was your intention to do so.  You would later have intentions which resulted in my feeling used, though it’s not fair to say it was your intention for me to feel used.  I understand that, at a time, I was beneficial, and you reaped of it’s reward.  Sort of like a drug addict, when the amount of benefit couldn’t supply an adequate ‘buzz’ you moved on to ‘stronger substances’.

Everyone does this in some way or another.  Depending on what activity is being performed, it’s either viewed as beneficial or detrimental to a person.  Sometimes, if the activity is initially perceived as detrimental, a person is thought of negatively for pursuing such interests.  However, what of when it’s ultimately of benefit to them, and they find they’ve acquired a rather marketable skill, in one way or another?

I see, and understand, how the game works.  I guess I just feel foolish for believing you wouldn’t do that to me, though honestly, I’m not sure why.  You’re just another being with hunger pains.  I think it barbaric to find resentment in the hungry seeking nourishment.  You’ve taught me how to properly identify what certain elements of your behavior translate to, and this will certainly serve me well.