V

From the first time I met you I was attracted. You might be ardent follower of ID, Freud but the thing is it is the very same ID which is responsible for attraction!

I don’t understand why you put yourself down. You have a lot to offer. You are kind, compassionate. I have seen you with animals. You have this twinkle in your eye when are pulling someone’s leg or eying the last slice of cake.

The way you patiently explain any concept I don’t understand.The way you roll you eyes and don’t say anything.

People do stupid things when they want to prove their point. So what? We all make mistakes. But you have to stop judging yourself so harshly.

You did say one thing which hurt me. While you may think you aren’t attractive or age isn’t on your side. Well V, age is just a number as for attraction it is sum of all things.

You lumped me along with yourself in the category of people who are unattractive, but V I know for a fact I’m not unattractive. I happen to be a Thinking man’s sex symbol. So there you go.

The funny thing is I still believe I have a chance with you, despite your strenuous protestations.

I’m quite stubborn (stupidly optimistic, naive whatever adjective you want to use) that way. But isn’t that what keeps us all going? That tiny little seed of hope that keep whispering stupid positive things that you foolishly believe it and cling to it.

I tried to rationalize and find out so many reasons why it wouldn’t work. I gave myself three months time hoping by which time the stupid attraction would go away.

With each snippet of information which was revealed, I became a little bit more attracted / interested / curious.

I did the usual, stalked you on social media, gleaned some more information. Tried all that stupid compatibility shit.

Finally yesterday when you made it pretty much clear you weren’t going to stay, I gathered up all my courage and told you about my attraction/lust/whatever.

See I wasn’t sure if you might make the first move so I took the initiative. But apparently you just don’t want to try anything now or in the foreseeable future.

OK I respect that. Your decision. You said you see yourself in me, so short of asking you reconsider ( seems polite but is actually begging/desperation ) I don’t know what else to say.

Let me close with an analogy V. If you have lice in your hair, you don’t shave your hair off. You clean it.

Same goes for relationships. Just because you happened to be burnt in the past, there is no reason for you to close yourself off to any other opportunity. Case in point, Hugh Hefner or Tom Cruise!

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