I’m so sorry for my behaviour recently and I know you had no other choice but to walk out of my life and tell me its finally over.  I still love you deeply and believe you love me.  I have been under so much stress in the past few months and this has resulted in me lashing out at the closest person to me – you.  I’m not the girl you met 1 year ago, my situation has changed me and I need time to get stronger and able to cope.  

But you were not perfect, I told you that I felt you hid things from me, you were not open about the relationship betwen you and your seperated wife – although I knew nothing was happening, it was the secrecy and lack of communication which made me feel there may be more to it. The fact that you were making no move to have full closure on your previous reltionship made me feel that there was a reason to do this and made me feel insecure.  I feel you let me down at times – when I needed you most, work came first.  I shouldn’t forgive you for that, but I would do. I feel you entered my life, I let you turn it on its head because I was so in love with you and now you have walked away from it and told me we are over.  The morning you left, you never spoke, never said goodbye.  I hurt everyday.  If you really did love me, why would you make me feel so bad, why did you not support me and try to work things out – the argument was pathetic if we think about it.

I love you, probably always will and I am heartbroken right now but I know you will proably never come back into my life so I am sorry – sorry I lost a wonderful man, sorry I caused this breakup with my actions and am now slowly reaping the rewards.  I am not sorry that I ever met you – as they say better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

from the bottom of my broken heart. X