Dear Jon,

     It’s been almost a year since we’ve spoken.  It’s been a very long year. Half of that is on you and the other half is on me(considering I blocked you on social media). I know that you ended it. What I don’t know is why. The plans we had could of worked out amazing if you and I both would of just tried a little harder. That being said, Thank my lord and saviour Jesus that they didn’t work the way that we planned. Since you left me just four days after graduating high school after dating all through it since we were  just in the 10th grade, I was lost.

Severely heart broken and so confused on why and how this could happen.  After all we were soul mates right? Wrong.  I was so wrong to ever think that.  Not to say we didn’t have good times in the beginning, but the ending was nothing but Hell. We never just talked anymore.  We never snuggled, never laughed, never did anything.  We only argued. I only cried. The only reason I didn’t end it months before you did is because I promised God that I wouldn’t if he could just fix it. Thats a promise that because of you I learned to never make again.  When it was all said and done and you left me so corageously over Facebook because you were too much to a chicken to say anything to me face to face thats when things changed. So much. At first all I was capible of  doing is greving. I just cried so much because of everything I couldn’t do without you. So, I very quickly rebounded with a loser and changed the college I was planning on attending just because I wanted to avoid you.

From May the 31st to August 15th all I did was distract myself from the thought of you. Thats all I was capable of doing.  Then I left for an amazimg adventure that being with you would of held me back from. I went to an actual college instead of this shitty little community college in this sleepy town. I left everything I ever knew behind just so I could start all over. In the first few days I made friends.lots of them. Not only did I make too many friends to name, ive had experiences worth more than anything we ever had together. Not anything is worth trading my new college shenanigans. Not the pretty promise ring that I pawned, not the bangles you had just gotten me for Christmas,  that I also pawned, not all of the dates we went on and the time we spent. Not the plans we made and never went through with. Nothing would of been worth trading my newfound friends and adventurs for.

Fastforward a year and I’m blessed to say after a long healing process and taking things at my own pace that change & sudden breakup was a BLESSING. It was after this time that I realized that I don’t need you to be happy, successful,  or whole. It was after months of not getting a weve been together X number of months on the 3rd letters making me upset to it being not even a passing thought that I realized I was strong without you,  it was after i started to realize everything you taught me our time together wasn’t a loss. It was simply time for it to end.  I wish you well. Thank you for your time, your lessons you’ve taught me, and mosy importantly for making me a stronger person. Until we meet again.

-your high school sweet heart.