6 months. Its been 6 months since you broke my heart. You cheated on me and left me for my best friend the same day. For 1.5 years you and I shared a bed and a kitchen. I gave you all my love yet still you took it for granted and used all of what made me, me. I turned into a crazy psychopath who didn’t understand love but only dependency.

I’ve grown much over the past few months slowly healing in the process. Taking care of myself has been long overdue. I can’t stress how much pain we caused each other during the break up on both sides. Yet even after everything you did, you still found fault in me and my actions to permanently put blame on me being a horrible human being. So self centered and immature for you won’t even take responsibility for your own actions of the relationship. You til this day talk smack about me to everyone you meet. And your blue eyes, the wells of depth, still have the ability to make people believe in you.

I’ve heard from many people that you’ve been sleeping around. In fact most of them were my old friends who you slept with. New friends I just met have also slept with you. They were all shocked when they learnt who I really was. And how calm and non-reactant I am to any gossip I hear about you. Its then that they realize who the crazy one really is or the real person filled with hate. Yes I do take responsibility for the way I reacted post break up. I did some very wrong things however that is not me. I was mentally unstable/ depressed and couldn’t handle myself at the time. Gained 95 lbs in the 1.5 years I was with you and left everyone for you.

I have forgiven myself for my part in the break up. What I can’t seem to figure out is why you continue to talk trash about me to everyone you meet. I understand you love to play mind games but still. I no longer talk about you as I’ve learned that I must move on. 80 mutual friends between so I still can’t get away from you entirely. Yet I know life is all about challenges. We have 0 contact, yet sometimes you plague my mind. All I know is that when people tell me that you’ve been talking smack, I simply say that at one point of time you were significant in my life and I know I was to you as well and with that I will respect you.

Good luck on all your future endeavors and I hope you find luck and happiness in your life. That’s it. You no longer hold control over me. I’m done with mind games and Ive learnt that people who don’t treat me with equal respect that I give out are toxic in my life. A Tiger does not care for the opinion of Sheep. With that said, continue going through your life but don’t expect me to react as I always have to your actions. Im no longer your puppet. In 6 months ive lost 65 lbs, 8 inches off the waist, reversed my health condition, regained my confidence, became my social self, back to dancing for youtube, regained all my friends that I had dropped for you, made a new life, and have become president of our college! Imagine what I can do in another 6 months! In a way its a compliment the way you still talk trash about me and sleep around with many men because I guess it takes that much of effort to truly find a way to get over me and I appreciate that. May peace be with you. Oh.. and Karma is knocking on your door as we speak.

From,
“The crazy ex” Arjun