Hey there,

It’s me again. Over here talking to myself. Drowning in these memories. Wishing you were here. Wishing things had never changed. Wishing, oh just wishing….

It hits the hardest at night. When I’m all alone in this empty room where you used to sleep right next to me. Where I’m left with my thoughts – memories of me and you, memories of us. Waking up to lonliness is a shock each time. Searching for your body next to mine in the early morning hours just to realize your gone – still.

And I know it was my decision. And I know it was time for things to end. But here I am, once again, wishing you were holding me the way you used to do. Missing every single part of you. Here I am again – thinking of you.

When will it go away? When will this longing subside? When will I be over you? Because every night I’m here again – wishing for things far away. Knowing all my dreams are fantasy. Everything I wish were true will never ever be, because you are no longer you and I am no longer me. We changed, we grew apart, we tore out one another’s heart. We laughed we yelled we screamed and cried. We burnt it all to ashes.

It was time for us to end. It was time to let go and let something new grow. But, here I am again dreaming of a different time where you and I were still ‘we’.