Dear Ade

I know I have hurt you badly after deciding to walk out on our marriage of less than 6 months. I wasn’t a good guy; I wished you were slimmer/ prettier/ etc. so on and so forth. But I can’t deny that I loved you too.

I knew the marriage couldn’t work out because I just felt so trapped with all my thoughts and knowing that it is wrong to expect you to change (yes, we talked many times about these and still the problems linger). I know I can’t change either. It truly was being caught between a rock and a hard place.

If I had the chance to do it all over again, I wished I had never met you. So I can never hurt you so badly.

I still feel sad over the pain I have caused you. I know that we would never be able to reconcile, and that you are still unable to forgive me. I don’t know how to make it up to you. Actually, I know I can’t.

I truly wish you would be able to move on sooner, and find someone much better than me that appreciates and love you for who you really are. I really do.

Till then, till I know that, I won’t ever be able to forgive myself.