Dear Ex,

I want you to know that I regret breaking up with you. What I regret even more is the way I did it.
I want you to know that you deserve better than this. I want you to know that you are probably the best man I’ve ever met. We dated for a relatively short period of time but I want you to know that you’ve managed to change a lot about me.
I didn’t appreciate you. I felt inadequate. I felt like a child compared to you. I thought I didn’t deserve you, which is true right now. I didn’t want you to get used to me. I wanted you to find someone “better” than me – more experienced,intelligent, prettier… and older.
I thought I was too young for you. I wish I’d knew that I shouldn’t focus on the age difference because we were good together. I know I should’ve followed your example, enjoy our time together instead of over-thinking and over-analysing. Our relationship had potential, but I destroyed it because I was too afraid of many things. Of my inadeqacy. Of my feelings towards you and your feelings towards me. I was to depressive and pessimistic and I know you didn’t like it. I know that you accepted me the way I was – it was me who couldn’t accept myself. I felt like a burden even though you didn’t give me reasons to think so. I felt like a burden and I wanted you to get rid of me.
I made a mistake. I didn’talk about my doubts. I was too scared so I destroyed everything before it started.
It’s been 3 weeks since we split. It was all my fault. We don’t have contact and I am not trying to regain it because I know that you’re angry. I am thhinking about giving it another go. I’ve realized my mistakes. I want you to forgive me but I don’t know whether it’s too early or not.
I miss talking to you. I miss the weekends spend with you. I miss listening to your voice. I miss your beautiful blue eyes looking at me with awe. I felt good with you. I just wish I could go back in time and do everything differently.

Yours sincerely
M.