Hey Buckwheat. Well that was my name, but to get your attention..
From the bottom of my heart, I truly, fully and utterly am sorry for everything and the damages I caused you.
I made you into a whole new person, and not in a good way so to speak. If there was anything on the planet I could do to take it all back, I would in a heart beat. I was the cruelest person and I did not give two cares about you in the ways I should have been invested. I made mistakes that are in no way acceptable. All I know at this point, is that we, you and I are at two completely different places with this little relationship we have going on. There’s no reason to go into my side and thoughts as you are already aware of them I am certain. You, on the other hand, Im just wishing, hoping and praying that maybe, just maybe you’ll give me a little chance and see some light at the end of this, I want to come home. Home for me was by you, in your arms, anywhere with you. I never in my entire life felt that way, You completed me in ways I had no idea about. I did not think that just a presence of someone could bring about calmness, or even simpler, the feeling of being OK was there, nothing has felt more out of place than all of this time without you. I have so so many more things to say, again though. It wouldn’t make any difference in the place you’re at .. I miss you..