Again Monkeyface!

It’s been a 7 months that we have talked, built a friendship, shared secrets, gotten to know each other all over again, even better in fact. Decided we will fight for this and then given up all over again.

I sent you a farewell message not long ago, telling you, yet again that I am happy to try and let go of this and move on. that maybe if I marry that someone else, and we’re meant to be together someday that we will find our way. But you have no idea. You have no idea that he just dumped me on Monday and I feel nothing. I feel no loss for him. I am constantly thinking about you. It’s always been about you.

I don’t understand, this love literally transcends everything it has come across in the last four years, for that I am literally elated and deflated all at the same time. I want to love you. I want to tell you I’m here now, within your reach. But you’re not well. What if you say no? What if you’re never going to be ready? What if I lose you without even trying?

That’s all I can say to empty my thoughts of you this evening. Meet me in my dreams. I miss you.

I love you,

Kittenface