If i had it in me to tell you the truth..
I’d tell you somewhere deep within me i still have feelings i can’t admit out loud. There’s too much to have to suppress again. Though i obviously did a poor job doing so. For that William i am sorry. I could never find a way to bring it up. I couldn’t put you through that. I doubt you feel the same and i’m not sure i would want you to. I’ve grown so much as a person but despite that i want better for you. You deserve the best in life and i’ve become so critical of myself trying to achieve greater that i doubt that is me. I confess you will likely always hold a piece of my heart captive, no matter how hard i try to replace it. If ever you find yourself having similar thoughts please be the brave one and let me know. I’ll never hurt you again. I’ll never relent in taking that opportunity, if ever given, to do all i can to keep you happy. I’m sorry i can’t say it.. But you ought to know.
Love always, me.