This apology is 15 years too late and from a much more mature, weathered, and wise woman. The truth remains that I have always felt a deep sense of guilt and shame for selfishly leaving you so broken and vulnerable. As all this time has passed, I grow more confident that I was quick to judge my waning feelings for you. I thought I was falling out of love when really I was adjusting to the new stage in our relationship.

While, I’m sure, life hasn’t always treated you without fault, I find solitude in the fact that you are living your dream in a career you were so passionate about and that you have found your love of a lifetime. I realized, recently, how rare it is to find true love – love that tears at the heart and exists without conditions. I’m glad I’ve felt that for another and received it in return. I hope that is the type of love you get to look forward to for the rest of your life.

I write with only the agenda of saying sorry for my behavior. You were, by far, the better half, and I clearly did not deserve you. I continue to not deserve someone like you, and I am content with that. I always admired how authentic you were – never stooping to trends or fads but, rather, living life in your own unique way.

You may never read this, and you may not care. I send it to you anyways with the prayer that it will find you – happy, healthy, and loving deeply.

AT