To my Superman,
I still remember the first time you said hello. I still remember the feeling i had for you the first time you told me you that you cared for me. The butterflies i feel inside every time we talk. I thought that was all it, but you made it happen that we met on not so likely time, but still, that was the most unforgettable moment of our love story. I fell in love with you when we we’re still talking via net. But when i saw you the first time, you took my breath away, i never thought i could ever fall this hard. But i never told you about how i felt for you, i didn’t want you to think i was that easy, i didn’t want to break my own rules for you, not just yet. And i waited for you, i waited for you to feel the same for me too. Little did i know, you were feeling the same all along, i didn’t happen to know the reason why it took you long to admit. But i’m happy. The morning of January 19th, you called me and told me you wanted us to be more than friends, that you want to take care of me not just a friend but my boyfriend. I was the happiest. Everything changed between us, we were even more sweeter, more open to each other, our world became more beautiful, because we had each other. That was for almost three months. Until we had a small misunderstanding, and that’s it, everything’s ruined between us. Everything we had meant nothing to you at all. So i had nothing left in me but the courage to ask you if you still want me, if you still want us. I was so scared while waiting for your reply. I was preparing myself for whatever your answer may be. And there it was, you said you didn’t want to keep me hanging and that i should go on without you. So i said OK. I said ok even when what i felt that time was the complete opposite. I still stood high, i didn’t want to breakdown, i didn’t want you to see me weak. I refuse to believe it was really happening, that we were really putting it to an end. I was afraid you might find someone better. And that we would never have a second chance. It’s been more than a month now, we’re still talking but things are a lot different, we’re back to the stage where you are my “superman” and i am your “heartbreaker”. Every time you ask me how i feel now, I will always say i’m okay, i’m fine and i’m good. I don’t want you to be bothered with how i feel. So i settled myself as your friend again. Your very good friend. For now, i can’t imagine how will i start to move on, to finally let go. I’m not ready yet, not ready to forget all the memories and let go of you. I had you for a long time, so i don’t mind keeping you in my heart even longer. To you superman, thank you for everything, thank you for letting me a part of your life and sharing me a bit of yours. Honestly, I’m still hoping for a second chance, that maybe you will realize and look looking for me in another person’s company. I won’t quit hoping for us, even if it hurts me knowing that its impossible. I miss you, I want you back, I want you to love me like you did before. I want us together again. I want to be your girl again and be better this time, best even. To you my ex, I still love you and i will keep loving you. You’re the best ex i had. You’re my superman. D.L.