B,

We grew up together, the 10 tumultuous years we spent on and off. I wanted you to love me and I wanted to be your wife. Now that time has passed, I am not really sure how we stayed together as long as we did except for pure human indignation. There was nothing about us that was similar except for maybe our darkness and our emotional distance from others. You always lied to me and I always knew it. I wanted you to love me so badly and I think in some way you wanted to love me, but I don’t think you ever really did. I think you wanted to. You could never be real with me and I could never get what I needed from you. We destroyed the special times we had. I stayed too long. I want to hate you but I can’t. I hope you are happy with the new life you have chosen. I can’t say that I miss you…for you really never were with me at all. You may have been physically with me, but your emotions and heart were always with someone else. I don’t know why you didn’t just end things sooner. I have tried to make sense of it all but nothing makes sense. I just miss the hope I had. I think you shared that hope with me for a brief instant. I want to hate you but I can’t. I wish things had been different. I hope you are happy and well and I hope that you do remember that there were good times too. I will always love and care for you. I am not sure why. I just will. The hardest part is knowing that we will never talk again and that we are strangers…maybe we always were. But we tried. We tried really hard.