It all happened so fast, its kinda killing me….I miss you so much, but its time for me to let go. I don’t even feel like messaging you, so i’m gonna type what I need to type here, I admit its my fault we both split different ways, but its also your fault too it’s your fault you chose others over me its your fault you are angry at the world and everything going on around you its also your fault you kept staying around me and never told me how you felt and worried me at night and made me cry for 6 whole months each and every night trying to figure out what i’ve done for you to completely treat me the way you do – I was super clingy and attached towards you I became that way because you led me to believe you loved me more – over the fact we’ve been on and off since december 2014 and you were the one who always came back into my life you were the first to come to me, not me. now all your friends think i’m an obsessive maniac for you which I clearly am for that reason which I just stated in my previous sentence, YOU LOVED ME FIRST. but then I realize that when I loved you and loved you more you began pushing me away, at that moment I realize it was gone and you never loved me. you have told others terrible things about me, you let people harass me on the internet you also have never defended me, but I defended you times you didn’t deserve, you allowed people THE PEOPLE that hated us together and kept them in your life, awful just awful. you say I don’t care about you but I truly do, you say i’m a selfish girl for not showing empathy for your feelings I do care about everything you’re going through I care that your family member is dying I care that youre friends are jerks towards you, I care mostly about you I am so selfless towards you (why? youre wondering?) a day an hour and a minute never goes by where i’m not thinking of you; I always think of you, you have never left my mind but you surely left my life and erased me.

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