To my Edward,
So I guess as I don’t think i’ll be seeing you again i best just explain like this.
I don’t want you to think that what happened didn’t hurt me too.
Letting you leave was so fucking hard alright, I have never felt more torn in my life.
Letting you into my life felt so right and so easy and I’ve never fallen for someone so fast and hard.
I realised that night that I wasn’t able to give you what you wanted and fuck Edward, that hurt but I couldn’t string you along and then hurt both of us bad somewhere in the future.
When you left I called my mum and cried for a few hours. Which honestly is crazy I only knew you for like a month but you made some big impression on me, doesn’t usually happen for me.
All my exes I have, as soon as we broke up I never spoke to again. Never messaged them drunk or anything. You are not even an ex yet for some fucking reason I can’t get over it as easy. It’s been 6 months since I last saw you but i’m still in the same place.
I just gotta let you go because you are obviously over it and i’m so sorry to keep bothering you. Honestly I just wanted to tell you this. It hurts to think that you might think I let you go easily. I didn’t. It was not easy.
I get you are hurt. I get it but can’t you just tell me instead of saying you’ll see me then cancelling or just ignoring me. I wasn’t an easy decision but i’m being made to feel even more shit about it. I just want to get over it if thats the way to go okay.
Sorry for bothering you again
I still feel the same.
I am sorry.