Dear Jay
I will never forget the day I met you as the day I met you my life turned 180 degrees and sent me shooting off on a path I never thought possible.
When I first met you I was in a relationship I wasn’t happy being in although I didn’t realise it. When I first met you I felt like I was useless and I had no point in this life I thought no one could love me but then you came along, now I feel as if I’m someone and I have a purpose in this life.

I still remember the way you looked when I first met you, your reddish brown hair, your brown eyes, I loved it when you looked at me, your brown eyes drilling into mine. I couldn’t help but think- I’ve never seen such dark eyes with so much light in them. I love he way you smile it’s a smile that seems so genuinely sweet and a bit shy. I love the unexpected warmth that rushed through me. I felt painfully out of place like a pepperoni that had mistakenly made its way onto a vegetarian pizza. I had never felt so awkward in my life. I felt all this yet I only knew your name.

I remember not being able to build up the courage to speak to you so I hid away on a cold stone bench, I couldn’t even go on my board I was so scared I would embarrass myself in front of you.
I remember the way I felt when I saw you stand up to come and speak to me I didn’t know what to do, I had never been in a situation like this before. I wanted nothing more than for you to like me.

It was then I remembered Ethan I shouldn’t have felt like this around you I had Ethan I was supposed to be happy but I wasn’t Ethan had never made me feel the way you made me feel. I never truly loved Ethan but with you I had never been happier.

I remember the day we spent hanging out in your house your room was red everywhere so many different shades of it. The bookshelf was my favourite part though all those books, comics and fandom merchandise,that day I laughed more than I had in a long time and it was all because of you. We spent the day watching TV and laughing you showed me one of the best tv shows I’ve ever seen in my life. You remind me of the main character a lot. I remember all I wanted to do that day was kiss you but I couldn’t because I still had Ethan and I wasn’t sure you liked me like that.

I remember the next again day when you told me you liked me a smile was stained on my lips and I couldn’t remember a time that i was that happy I remember breaking up with Ethan and telling you I felt the same way.

That night my joy was so overwhelming I wanted to share it with anyone that would listen.

The next time I saw you you walked right up to me and kissed me, the world fell away… I was so close to you I could feel your heart beating against my chest

It’s been three months now and yesterday you called it off… your mum has cancer and you couldn’t make time for me anymore… you said we can get back together sooner or later… I hope it’s sooner rather than later…. I miss you jay.

I may not know a lot but I do know one thing I love you jay and I always will.

Love Lonely Girl ❤️