if you only knew how drawn to you i have been from the moment we first met.
i know you tried. i know we tried. and i am so grateful for that. my memories with you (the good ones) are some of the best memories of my life, easily.
i think about you every day, without failure.
we had it so good for a while. i know it moved too slowly, and i know it never became what either of us needed it to be, but i SO badly wanted it to.
i hate myself for not being myself with you. i wish i could have let you in more. i was just so afraid that i wouldnt be what you wanted or needed. but you were what i needed. i was so so happy that you wanted to be with me. i never wanted our time together to end. I could spend 8 hours with you and it still wouldnt feel like enough.
i am so endlessly sad that it didnt work out.
i really REALLY wanted it to.
I still think about you every single day. I hope you find what you’re looking for.
All my love.
lori