Brandon-
You were never an ex. You weren’t even an “almost”. But you affected me more than any one guy in my life. I miss you so much. To the rest of the world, you don’t even belong on this website, but I’m sure that if you thought about it, you would know the exact moment that landed you here. The moment that landed us in the relationship that we have now (or lack thereof). You were everything to me, and to Haley, and you knew that. When that got screwed up, you moved to me. I was so scared of losing you that I passed barriers that I will regret for the rest of my life. I don’t know why you so desperately wanted to ruin me, ruin her, ruin us, but you did. I want you to know that I hate you so much. But I don’t. Our relationship was never simple and it never will be. We really need to talk, but I know that the second I approached you I would break down, just like I did last month. I want you to see this so you know I still care about you, so that you know I still want to make sure that you are safe. But I don’t think you will ever see this.

Brandon, why did you let us go?

-K