So this is the real you. The you that, just before Christmas I was somehow convinced into giving a second chance.

You never intended to open up to me- to let me in completely.

Maybe that’s what you lack, the ability to love and be loved, because when someone like me lets someone in they do it with as much of everything that they physically, emotionally and spiritually are able to give.

If you didn’t intend to string me along- you wouldn’t have thrown me away. Made me believe we had a possible future, a possible life we could have potentially shaped.

I’m not stupid, you know- far from it. I could feel what you wanted from me, how you just took my energy, used me!

I looked at our early conversations and I fell straight into your trap didn’t I? It’s just so funny- you properly reeled me in and walked all over me.

You didn’t cherish me- you threw me away- like a damaged piece of fruit that you couldn’t bear to have just rotting by your side anymore.

That and that alone is the reason you have no friends. Initially that was puzzling to me- but I now I see. You aren’t capable of getting past the stage of taking someone’s energy and binning them off when they are no longer of any use to you.

Good people, decent people have people around them that love and cherish them.

Maybe it’s because your father abandoned you- ever thought about that?

I understand your circumstances have changed, but you were just weak- you should have ended it ages ago if that’s what you really wanted, when the novelty of me and my culture wore off.

I do wish you the best, but just know that you lost a diamond that would have stuck around and worked hard to be there and support you, especially with your health.

I can’t even cry for you, for us, because you are far from the person I really thought you were.

You are deceptive and selfish and everything you convinced me you weren’t. You’re no different than the pretenders and players who came before you. And that’s what hurts- I don’t even know you.

Don’t treat people like rubbish and maybe if you learn from this you won’t end up alone.

I will FIND someone decent, thoughtful and genuine- everything I once thought you were.

I’ll find that because those things are everything that I am and everything that I deserve.

Good luck- I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

It’s funny how when a relationship ends, you end up finding more out about who a person really is. I think you are a good person, a good man, with a good heart, somewhere deep down. It’s just a shame I never really got to see it.

Peace out

Catwoman