To my ex,

I found myself in an uncommon situation last night. Well, it was uncommon for me over the past year and a half. I was in my bed, prepared for sleep, when I found myself thinking about you. My thoughts were back around three years ago when I asked you out. My mind then jumped to our conversation over messenger a short time ago – it didn’t feel right. The conversation didn’t end properly.

I write this not out of guilt, rather because I feel you deserve it. And maybe a sprinkle of guilt. You deserve to know that I am thankful for the time we got to spend together. I appreciate your entry into my life and the affects you left on me. I am also grateful for the memories that now, after some time, I can look back on and enjoy. Even to this day, the effects and memories you left me with are still thriving and present.

You brought me out of my shell. You installed confidence and worth into me that we both know wasn’t present at the beginning of our time together. I possess sincere gratitude for how you changed me as a person. Thank you.

The time post break-up has flowed very ordinarily. Typically finding myself focusing on my own wellbeing and self-growth, with an occasional and short-lived entrance of a female, just the way I wanted it. Somewhat recently, dissonance exploded in me. It was easy for me to find myself near females, but hard for me to find care for any of them. I believe this dissonance matured me and changed my mindset across many platforms.

Now, this is not a love confession, or a crafty attempt to reignite our relationship. This writing is me reaching out to clear the fog. You certainly deserve to know your lasting impact on me. I really hope I left a positive impact on you.

Warmly,
Smit