Dear my love,

I do not know why I am writing this. Maybe because I am still deeply in love with you, or it may be because I cannot let you go. We were not together for what most people would call a long time, but to me, it felt like a lifetime. I trusted you from the start. I told you everything. Whether it was me falling on my face, or personal details of my past. You never judged my self-inflicted scars. You understood every bit of my past, and you never thought of me any different. You were my best friend, my love, and I so badly wanted to grow old with you. I made so many mistakes, one of my biggest, was losing you. You gave me happiness in the dark. Whenever I thought I would never smile, you gave me my smile back. You were the one I wanted to grow old with, you know? I let my insecurities get the best of me. My father broke my heart before a boy ever could, and I know that you never wanted to hurt me. I was scared, so scared you may leave like he did so many times. I had never felt that kind of caring or love from a guy. I was scared, so I ran. I ran because I did not want you to hurt me, so I hurt you instead. I regret it, so much. You would have never hurt me. We are still friends. Every song I hear that we use to sing to together, reminds me of you and our memories. Every laugh, every tear, every smile, was better when I was with you. You wiped my tears away, and you kissed my scars. I ruined it, and I blame myself every day. If you were to message me and tell me you still wanted to be with me, I would drop everything for you. I would love you unconditionally. I would not give up this time. You are every bit of my happiness. I just want you back. I am sorry for how I hurt you. I am sorry I was so scared. Dear lord, I love you with every broken piece of me. Please come back. I need you.