it’s been a while now, and time has not been kind to me. I cannot let go, I have only been able to gather my thoughts and gain more introspection. The time it happened, I blamed you. But you leaving is my fault alone. If there’s one thing I hope you know, it’s that I did truly love you. At the time, I didn’t know how to show it. But I swear on my life I loved you for who you were, not for someone I was trying to make you become. At the time I projected so much of my sadness and frustration on you even though my problems truly had nothing to do with you. In truth, you were the only one holding me together and the only one who was there for me when I needed it most. You never told me I was being selfish. You never told me I was hurting you. You never told me I was treating you wrong. You are so strong and amazing and unique. All your flaws that I pointed out in the past ~ those were part of what made you so beautiful and I have so many regrets. You told me I wasn’t ready, and you were right. I am so sorry. You deserve someone who is with you every step of the way and trusts you and puts you above all else.
I am sorry