Dear you

I always thought we were united by something special and that nothing could ever separate us.
I knew everything about you, you knew everything about me. We were honest about everything. I thought we were special together.

However, it seems I was wrong. You left me.

You stopped loving me or whatever. I still can’t understand what I did wrong.
I was just focused in loving you all the time. I loved you with every part of me.
Maybe that’s the problem I loved you so much and you didn’t love me enough. You didn’t fight, you didn’t stay.

You said you wanted me to stay with you forever, but then you left me with no explanation.
The last 4 days we saw each other were hell. You treated me like a stranger. Like I didn’t mean anything to you.

I’m still confused though… You told me so many things I can still remember.

You even told me once, with tears in your eyes “you don’t know what you mean to me”.
I still remember that moment and I can’t understand why are we apart now.

I miss you everyday and every hour. I miss you so much it hurts.
I can’t believe your silence. I can’t believe you still don’t miss me. I can’t believe you’re not sorry about how things ended yet.

I’m not waiting for you anymore. I’m done.
You hurt me so badly I can’t no longer wait for you.
But I still love you and I’m not sure I will ever stop loving you.
I’m pretty sure you were the love of my life but you hurt me and broke my heart like nobody ever did before.

I hope someday you can realize how much I loved you.
I felt a real connection between us, but you broke it. You didn’t fight. You didn’t stay.
You gave up. We were good together (or at least I thought we were) and I will miss you everyday of my life. But you gave up.

I already said how sorry I am for everything I did wrong.. But you just stayed quiet. You didn’t reply. Your silence is like knives going inside my heart a million times.

Now I realize that maybe the only thing I did wrong was loving you. It only ended up hurting me.
Maybe now you’re happy without me, and it’s ok. I just wish you were here. I really do.

I also would like you to read this. But since you won’t, I can only pray for you to be happy, and finally find someone you will truly love. Someone who will be able to make you stay and fight.

I really hope you find someone who loves you half of how much I loved you

I hope one day you can heal, I hope one day you can let yourself be loved the way I was loving you.

You can’t imagine how much I miss you and how much I love you.
I know we will be able to talk someday… And I really REALLY hope my heart will be healed by then.

I’m moving on right now as I promised the last day we saw each other. I can’t wait for you anymore. Maybe soon someone will pick up the pieces of my heart and will put them together.
Maybe I will give myself a chance to love again soon.

I hope you can heal and be the woman I know you are inside.
I hope you can find what you’re looking for.
And I really hope you can realize I’m not your enemy.

I hate to say it but I do still love you C.

Sincerely,

K