Dear ex,
Oh my lover boy, you knew from the beginning how I was I was open 100% open with you since we started hanging out as friends I was never hiding anything from you. I accepted you of your past and I was willing to go down that journey with you. But no YOU had to go cheat on me, only YOU decided to sleep with 2 girls behind my back and lie to my face time and time again. I had a feeling you were cheating but I didn’t want to admit it to my self. Your own mother even told me you would never do that to me and that you are loyal to me. Boy was I dumb for believing you and her. You had no idea how hard that was for me to hear and watch those words come out of your lips. You had me in you corner and you knew I would take a bullet for you in a heartbeat I would have risked my life because It would break my heart to have let you go and not be in my life. Don’t get me wrong you run though my mind time and time again and I have came to accept my life with out you. Don’t get me wrong I will miss those late night ice cream runs to the store and we would stay up late watching movies, and all the cuddling and most importantly you looking deep into my eyes and saying you love me then the kiss on my forehead . Now that is what I will miss the most from you. I wont miss how you lied to my face time and time again when I knew you were lying. I wont miss the back stabbing. but after all the hurt you gave me and all the pain and suffering I just went through just know I tried my hardest to push away those horrible feelings and stayed with you and tried saving something that wasn’t worth saving in the long run. I hope this new girl is with it to losing me. I hope she fulfils everything I wasn’t able to give you during our time together. Just know hat I DID try my hardest. goodbye mi amour
– The one who loved you to the moon and back
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Well, this brings back some memories. I know it’s not you, and I know she’s moved on. But, as someone who’s mother did say to my ex that I would never cheat on her, who did cheat, who’s brother once said “Sam is loyal,” let me say, that I’ve been here for a year. I haven’t dated anyone in that time. I wish everyday I could go back and undo those hurtful things. I wish I could take back the last angry hurtful letter I sent her. So many things, but, for now, I just want to say I love her and I’m slowly learning to be a better man. None of it makes any difference, but, at least one person deeply regrets his actions and wishes for a way to make things right
Gosh, thanks for posting this. There are so many things I want to say. But, the sad part of breaking up is that your person isn’t your person anymore. No matter how much you still love them, no matter how much you still care, there’s no way to go back and undo what’s been done. God may forgive us, but we are left to live with the consequences of our actions. Cheating cost me the love of a good woman, who was better, in some ways, than I deserved. Had I been a man and been able to talk about my problems, maybe the cheating would not have happened. But, like so much else, Humpty Dumpty can’t be put back together again. Be well Sierra. Maybe your ex regrets what he did, I know I do, but, even if he doesn’t know that you will find a way to understand it all an go forward. And someday you might even find someone, who like Jimmy Stewart in It’s a Wonderful Life will throw a lasso around the moon and take it down to put it in your pocket.
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