I think about you. Day and night. Everyone asks me how im doing. I say im fine with a smile in my face. But deep inside im filled with so much sadness. Its eating me alive. I miss you so much. Youre doing fine. But im struggling without you. We were supposed to get married. Why couldn’t you just listen to me and make things work. You made me all these promises. You promised you wouldnt give up so easily but you did. 3 years in love. But you gave up so fucking easily. Yeah I know im still young and barely 21. But you were my first. I thought i wasn’t going to be able to survive without you but here i am breathing and shit. Struggling but here. I miss you so much. You are and will always be my almost lover.. I wish things would have worked… But you gave up so easily…….