Hi J,

You probably don’t even remember me anymore, but I was at an event recently where there was a guy who looked so much like you, that it brought back so many memories. Those memories are back again (even more painful & stronger) today, because it’s July 5th…

It’s been more than a year since we last spoke, & I don’t even know where to start because I know I messed up a lot. So much to the point that it killed our friendship, turned us into total strangers, made you hate me, & not wanna speak to me ever again.

To this day I still can’t believe I caused something like that, & acted the way I did. I hate myself for it. And I know it won’t make a difference now, but again, I’m truly sorry.

Not a day goes by that I still don’t wonder how you are, where you’ve traveled to since then (because I remember how much you loved to travel), & why I didn’t have enough to offer (or wasn’t good enough for) you in the end that you didn’t wanna stick around.

There are so many times that I wish I could just pick up the phone (or text you), and talk like we used to. But then I remember you don’t wanna hear from me anymore.

Just know that you’re the 1st guy I really cared about, and really loved. For a while, I thought you felt something for me. And even though you had your faults, I was okay with them, & was willing to accept you for who you were. Hope you’re doing well.

Your now former “friend” who still misses you,
A