Hey. I miss you. I miss your family. I miss your smile. I miss your smell. I miss your friendship. I hope you’re doing well. I see you around and can tell that you’re happy. That’s all I ever wanted for you and the reason for our whole mess. But seeing that you are truly happy now makes it worth it. It’s been months and I still cry every night. You said I’d get over you and people told me it’d get better, but how long is that going to take? There’s so much I want to tell you, but I don’t want to be a bother. You asked if we could be friends again, but what does that mean? Whenever I try to reach out you seem annoyed. You were my best friend and still the only person I trust, so it’s hard not having you there for me. I understand your feelings are gone, but that doesn’t mean we can’t be friends, right? I’ve been really stressed lately and have no one to talk to. Sometimes I wonder if you knew what was going on in my head you’d act differently. I still talk to God about you. I pray everyday that maybe someday our paths will cross and we’ll end up back together, but I trust that whatever plan He has for me will be great. I hope you’re staying strong in your faith. That was always so important to you. Sometimes I see you making bad decisions and I wish I could talk to you about it. Did you start doing these things because of me? I can’t help but feel guilty. I know you don’t care anymore, but I just wanna say I’m sorry. The way I handled things during our breakup is one of my biggest regrets. I just wanted happiness for you, but I did it all wrong. I mistreated you when we were together and I wish I could’ve been a better girlfriend. You deserve the world. I hope you never change who you are for any girl. I love you. And I’ll always be here for you if you need me.