Dear R,
It’s been a year and a half since we broke up. Well, I say we broke up because I consider you my first girlfriend, but I’m not really sure what you think about our relationship if it was even that. I have always loved you more than you ever loved me. I wish we didn’t end the way we did. It was all of a sudden and came out of no where and now almost two years later I’m not sure if I’m even over you. I don’t know the signs of being over someone. I still think about you all the time and I’m pretty sure you haven’t thought about me at all. It’s weird. I know I don’t want to get back together with you, but I still wish we can still talk. Get the proper ending we deserve. We didn’t even say goodbye to each other. I still wish we can still talk yet at the same time I know if you messaged me I know I won’t reply to you. It’s just hard cause I thought you were always going to be in my life even as just friends, but now you’re just a memory. I’m going to have to move on from you. I’m going have to find someone else and they’re going to show me that you were never the best thing I ever had. Time will show me that the break up was for the best of us, but right now I’m still asking why did we stop. I’m not sure if I still love you. I want to say no of course not, but I know that won’t be true. I’m trying. I’m trying to not to love you. I’m trying to move on. One of these days I’ll move on and I won’t love you anymore. One day one day one day. I just hate the fact that I still think about you and I hope that I even cross your mind. I honestly hope you’re doing well and that you’ve able to find a way to be yourself. I hope you’re happy with yourself. Thanks for teaching me how to love.