It’s still so fresh. Not even a week has passed since our breakup. I’m miserable. I’m trying my best to keep it together but I often fail at it. It feels so weird not to talk or text throughout the day. Or what about the anticipation of waiting for you to come home from work to greet me with a kiss? Or what about your random kisses throughout the night? Or what about the late night conversations? Or simply watching a movie after the kids have fallen asleep? To think that we will no longer share that or anything else together.

Now I have to figure out how to live my life without you when the whole time we were building it together. I have to figure out how to co parent without being in a relationship with the person I’m so in love with. I have to figure out how to start over. I have to figure out how to deal with all this sadness and confusion that I feel. I don’t know what to believe. I don’t know what to feel. I feel so lost.