To the person my heart has always belonged to-
I came here to write this because I wasn’t sure where else to go. You used to be the person I would’ve talked to about this, even if it was about you. I told you everything, you were my rock. Now I’m up in the air floating because I have nothing to ground me. Everyday I tell myself “I wish I hadn’t met him”, but I know that’s a lie. We met when we were so young and I couldn’t make myself believe that I was with the person I was supposed to be with forever. Almost 3 years passed and so much had happened and we were so far apart I did the unthinkable and left you. I thought I was happy with the decision, I selfishly thought I was doing what was best for us. For a while I did think so. I met the new guy and thought I had moved on. I finally believed I had found the guy I could spend the rest of my life with, but that feeling was quickly cut short because of you. You. You were always in the back of my mind and I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I selfishly reached out to you again and I’m so sorry how I handled myself. I thought we could make the distance work again and I was wrong. I went back to missing you just like the first time and I couldn’t handle the feelings. Knowing I couldn’t hold you everyday scared the life out of me, and I stepped back. It was nothing you did it was me being scared again. If I could take it back, I would’ve moved to SB to be near you. At the time the thought scared me and it didn’t seem possible. But I should’ve done anything to be with you and I would if I had the chance again. I know I don’t deserve another chance but you do deserve another apology. So I’m truly sorry. Who knows where we’ll end up, but part of me will always wish I was with you. A little part of me knows you think of me to, and that’s honestly the only thing that keeps me going some days. I will not reach out to you again because I know it’s not fair to you. But I’m here. If by some crazy chance you read this letter, I’m here waiting for you. And I always will be. I’m sorry nick.
Love always.