Jon he makes you happy doesn’t he? Ive only seen one picture but the way you look at him makes me WANT to be happy for you, truly. I promised I wouldn’t cry but my eyes hurt to much. I wont let you find out I still love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you even though im just a stupid teenager. I promise my feelings are so true and i’ve never felt this before, and I never want to unless it is with you.
I hope he does not hurt you the way I did. My stupid insecurities got in the way of our relationship, and look at me now. Alone and watching you flourish. Dear god, how I miss you. I miss everything, and even the stupid shit that gets on my nerves. I d do anything just to speak to you again. To hug you. I wonder if you still have the necklace I bought you from the UK.
Im trying the law of attraction to get another chance with you, to show you im not some insecure idiot, but if for whatever reason things dont work out, Ill be okay someday, who knows when. You dont care, and i dont expect you to. I love you Jonathan and I hope you live your best life.