Hey J, I am sorry for my behaviour after we broke up it was unacceptable and very wrong. I am not condoning my behaviour, but i was so screwed up from your head games you played. You really played a number on me mentally. I behaved in a manner that was so out of character for me, you are not to blame for that. I myself am, because I allowed you to play with my emotions.

I hope one day you can forgive me as I have forgiven you. Since that day I have been in a downward spiral, but am picking myself up slowly. I have to say thank you though. Without you I wouldn’t have become the person I am right now. A person that is so much stronger mentally and will never allow myself to be in that position evet again. And I wouldn’t have told everyone either about you. I have you to thank for that. So thank you J

Thank you for opening my eyes to narcissistic sadist people that thrive on torturing people. All they care about is inflicting pain upon others. Don’t get me wrong you weren’t the only one that was dishonest, I was after we went our separate ways. I lied that I didn’t do it, but i did and that guilt had been eating me up till I realised I deserve so much better and i forgave myself so i could heal.

Wish you all the best in life J. Everyone deserves to be happy in life. Only advice I can give you darl is, be honest with them from the start even if you don’t see a future with them don’t lead them on. Also you don’t have to lie about them either to try and get them into trouble. You know as well as I know that majority of those things said about me are lies. If it helps you sleep better than go for it. I forgive you J and oneday i hope you can forgive me.

Goodbye my second love. I will wait for that day where I can apologise to your face instead of writing it anonymously…