F. Everything happened so fast. We fell for each other quickly and things were so awesome. You brightened my days and I looked forward to your calls in the nights. Loved interacting with you and loved being with you. That night I asked to make it official I couldn’t take my eyes off you. So beautiful. 

I still wonder why you went so cold after I brought up a valid concern. I was so confused by the backlash and regret even bringing it up. Since that night things plummeted almost as if it was out of my control.

That night we argued I was so crushed by the text I received by my friend I lost it. I saw red and had to tell you. Things got heated and I went in to defend myself mode.

Since that night I’ve been constantly thinking of you. First few nights you were in my dreams which made things harder. I tried to suck it up and move on but one thing that’s been crystal for me is that. I want you.

I’m sending you a brief letter tomorrow and as I write this I’m nervous about sending it. You’ll probably blank it but at least I can get closure if it goes that way. My fingers are crossed it works because I really do want you in my life. I love you and miss you.