Dear Bella, i don’t remember how we met, i remember every moment we had together. I texted you about self harm, about your problems then you showed me what you look like. When i saw you my life changed, not just a little you changed it a lot. We started out as friends who barely talked, then we were friends who texted all day and all night, then we were friends who face timed almost everyday and then i started a habit where i couldn’t sleep without face timing you.

I would write you 3 paragraphs a day. At first your reaction would be to cry because you never knew someone could care so much about you, i asked you out you said yes.. that changed me. You made me happy. I had a connection with you, one i’ve never had with someone. We dated for a long time. I guess you hated everything about yourself but i loved everything about you, even the way you smiled, just the way you bit your lip and it turned into a smile your laugh.. was the best part. Your eyes are like diamonds but with an ocean inside the diamond. I have over 60 pictures of you. We broke up, i still have them, i don’t wanna delete them.  I guess the only thing i have left to say is – i love you, i miss you. I wish we were friends. You just faded away from me and at some point i have to let you go. I don’t send anyone paragraphs anymore. I hope your ok.