Hey Ian,

Chances are you’ll never see this but that’s okay. I honestly thought about sending this to you but I don’t even know if you still live at your old address. It’s been 4 years now since we said goodbye, but you did reach out to me last year, got me to message you back, and went on and on about how great your life has been going and that you were engaged. At the time I was kind of taken aback at how the vent kind of came out nowhere after 3 years. A lot has happened since then though and to be honest. I understand now.

A few months after you messaged me, I actually met an incredible person and allowed myself to fall in love again for the first time since we had dated. It was an incredible rollercoaster and I loved him so much and so deeply. This time, though, I was on the opposite side. I was on the end that you had been in our relationship and what I had done to you emotionally, I was having done to me this time around. When we broke up I couldn’t handle it and I just wanted to keep texting him and I tried to get an answer out of him as to why. why it had to be this way, and why couldn’t we figure a way to make it work. Then it hit me. That the way I was acting was exactly how you had when I broke up with you. 
Now I want to just tell you: I’m sorry. 
I’m sorry that you never got the answer you needed from me, and that I didn’t give you the time of day. 

There’s a theory that we have 3 loves in our lives:
The first happens when we’re young.
The second teaches us a lesson.
The third is meant to last.

You were my first love.
I was your second love.
and you found your third.

I truly am happy that you found that third love. I’m happy that you found a way to move forward and to grow. I hope now that I experienced second love that I also can move forward and grow also. I hope that you continue to have a great life and make the most of what you life offers you.