Yeah I can’t believe i’m doing this, but this is my last chance before I actually let go. You always said too much and never showed me with actions. Maybe thats why my expectations were high for you. I created an image of the future that we could have and I worked for it. I worked hard in school, I matured, I was patient, and I really loved you. Yeah, you promised me the same but failed to be there for me when I needed you. I can’t and won’t blame you for us cause I know you. This wasn’t your fault and I know you wanted us to work as much as I did, but you don’t love me as much as you think. It took me a while to understand this and I think I broke things off once I realized that you were willing to put me through pain for your happiness or “our” happiness. I know you’re a good person and we would’ve worked out if all the messed up shit in my life didn’t happen. I don’t even know why Im writing this but if with some crazy coincidence that you read this, its because I still haven’t given up on us.