Dear you – I look back now all the years gone by and think was it even real or just in my mind.  the sweet sound of your voice sayin hey baby I’m home and how your beautiful smile light up the room. you were kind to a fault to most everyone we knew, but you forgot about me over the time and your love turned to gloom. I am well aware of every fault that’s mine, I’ve gone over them each at least a million times.  

I never felt like you were truly mine, I couldn’t understand that all to come was to script, like I was married to a movie and I couldn’t change it a bit. the way you got sick when you were pregnant with the boy, I thought he was mine now I’m not  sure anymore. Were you ever on my side? now looking back I must reflect, no one is that perfect, the way you chased my heart down, like a lion in the chase,  everyone knows it’s the truth but you lost me along the way, love.

Now I always miss you, I remember watching you write, so many songs I can’t count, I remember the last one I recall that you wrote you were scrimping over the words and kept asking me if it sounded right. I didn’t know then that it was all meant for me. it was your song to hit me as hard as could be. I remember the tune and I remember it best, it was all too well and you were writing it for me. the part that hits hardest is we were still not broke up, I was blind as a bat and stupid in love. I’d have stayed just like that but that life you couldn’t live – stuck with a moron and his simple life was not your gig.

I remember the tears and the pain when you left I think I begged you to stay, to no avail you still left.  now you’re much bigger than you were even then and me I’m no one. so there was no sin. it’s ok to hurt no one right?that’s the part I get. Now your song plays in my mind all the time. is it about me or someone else this time? eight years gone by, a million tears cried. I can’t even call you up. I’d get laughed at for sure. nobody would suspect me ever with her. funny as hell, that’s what they’d say. but I remember it babe more and more every day. but is it truth, that’s the thing, not so you could tell – except in my dreams, where no one becomes King and the evil witch that stole his heart she turns into the beautiful and swift, a princess for sure and my favorite one to boot.

But you left me behind with only memories of you. so write a song about this and turn it round then when it plays on the air waves it’s you turn to dream, but of me I so doubt, probably a movie star or a executive with clout.

sun comes up moon goes down I be here when your hearts old and worn out, then heal you again with blood from my soul and watch you walk away again till your old, but don’t look back and don’t shame because inside you and me were the same, say it babe you know my name…