You aren’t allowed to end things with someone by saying “I think it would be better if we were just friends,” if you don’t really mean. Yes, people say that after a breakup as a form of pleasantries, or WHATEVER, but that is not what you should use as your excuse for ending things, act your age and say that you lost feelings for me. I don’t even think that is what I am the most mad about, I think it’s that fact that we still hung out a few times after this happened and I asked you if you actually wanted to stay friends (because I did) and begged you not to lie to me because it would hurt worse and yet you lied straight to my face.
The more I think about it the more I realized that you really only ever cared about your own feelings and not feeling awkward. You barely texted me towards the end of our relationship (for a few weeks), but when you would see me in person everything would feel normal, we talked like usual, we kissed, everything felt normal again. I felt as if everything was fine and you were just busy. The next week you ended things. I completely understand you not feeling the same way anymore, but it isn’t fair that you kept pushing and pulling me. I don’t think you understand the affect that had on me mentally and then you lying and saying you still wanted to keep me in your life and be friends, but then not reaching out to me for months, caused me so much anger, sadness, and confusion.
Finding out through your friend months later that you want nothing to do with me hurt the most out of anything. Did any of this hurt you? I ask that even though I’m not sure I want to know the answer.
I hate you, but can’t help myself to also still care for you extremely.