This is the longest we’ve gone without speaking, it almost feels like that everything about you & everything we had are so unreal. 5 months without you feel so empty, i tried to replace you, and i ended up distancing myself.

I wouldn’t like to say that i miss you, yet you are always in the back of my mind. i always think to reach you out and ask how you been, alas part of me wants to never speak to you yet part of me wants to speak to you again. it takes everything in me not to reach you, Emma. at some point when i feel so pointless and i feel like i cant bear with the longing inside of me, i stare at my phone screen and look at your instagram account and start to wonder should i dm you? i eventually never did.

I wish you knew how much these unsaid words are weighed me down, you refused to read all the messages i’ve sent you probably because you don’t want memories of me keep haunting you, i understood it. i used to wish for you to contact me again but now i’m coming to terms with the fact that it’s over. i heard that you’ve got a new boyfriend, i’m immensely happy for that, i hope you’re in safe hands.
in another universe, i hope it’s just us and everything we’ve ever wanted.