Dear Anya 

Sometimes I wish we never met. Not because you’re a bad person but rather the opposite. You’re genuinely an amazing person which is why this was so hard. Not gonna lie, I still think about you. Not as often as I used to, but it happens. I’m trying to move on. It doesn’t happen overnight, but it’s happening. This might be what I need to finally let you go 

I wish you loved me the same as you love everyone else. You’re one of the kindest people I know, with so much love to give. I wish you fought for me a little more and was scared to lose me a little bit.

By the end of it, I didn’t feel good enough. I waited weeks to see you and hours to call you freeing up so much time for even the slightest chance that you just might come around and pick up the phone. But you never did. I felt taken for granted. I did not feel loved.

Even after all that, I will never hold anything against you as you’ve given me memories that I’ll carry with me forever. Although you’ve said otherwise i will never truly know how much I meant to you, but I can tell you that you used to mean so very much to me. 

– Cliff