in such a short amount of time i had with you, you somehow became everything to me. i clung onto hope for the future for us. breaking it off hurt me more than you know because i really didn’t want to. but i knew that i wasn’t the girl for you. i was never special to you. i’ve come to realize that that’s not a bad thing. im ok with that now, but it doesn’t change the fact that you were special to me.

i know i probably wasn’t the best gf, because of my communication & attitude but i had never been in a relationship before you. i was constantly trying to make sure i was doing something right between us. although i had good intentions, i probably hurt you in some shape or form. & im sorry. i’m so sorry my love. i miss you so much, i hate it. i find myself looking for reasons to hate you so i can move on because ik you’re completely fine without me…. but i’ll always look back & see the time i did get to have with you made me happy.. i hope you’re doing well and the rest of your family too…btw i’m still mad i never got to meet doobi (or dubi ?? i can’t remember lol) 
anyways; 
i love you baby.