I’m just going to start from the beginning. The first time I saw you in Dr. T’s class it was love at first sight. As we began to talk and date I knew you were everything I ever wanted in a girl plus more. I grew to truly love you. Unfortunately, I did not know how. As you know my mom allowed me to talk to her however and that’s how I learned to communicate with someone I loved. She was a passive parent and my only parent. Don’t get me wrong I love my mom. Also the only father figure I had growing up was John. The only relationship I ever really saw was John and Cassie. All they did was argue and fight and I carried those habits. I never experienced someone truly loving someone. I didn’t know consciously that those things hurt a relationship. Every time we have broken up I either try to change in a week and then quit or try to hate you. I indulged myself in smoking almost multiple times a day to forget you and our whole relationship. All that did was cause me to stay down and never realize things. Then we would get back together when I haven’t really reevaluate myself, but I always wanted you back. We would rush back together without really talking about our problems, just because we were so happy to have each other back into our lives. All our problems could have easily been fixed with better communication but that’s part of the learning process. Our whole relationship was pretty fast paced, plus had a lot of major events occur that I did not know how to handle. I’ve actually taken this tome to open my eyes. I’ve spent a lot of time and money reading articles and books on love and etc. I’ve learned a lot like about my feelings and to talk about them instead of balling them up inside. I’ve recognized what a relationship is and it’s a partnership, while I was trying to do everything on my own. Also communication is a key role. No matter what you will always have a piece of my heart. I’m sorry for everything. If I could go back and change things, I wouldn’t. I would make sure they never happened. Everything happens for a reason though. I really appreciate everything you have every done for me, especially through my worst of times. I thank you for everything including helping me realize my troubles. My actions did not truly reflect my inner self and true feelings. I can understand why and how you feel the way you did and do. You deserve nothing less than the world. I honestly wish you nothing but the best and you to be happy.