John. I really wish our breakdown had gone down differently. But, it happened the way it did for a reason. You really don’t even deserve this letter from me, but i have to get the nasty feelings out somehow, so here it goes. We got together in November of 2016, meaning we were together for a year and 3 months. Somehow, i let you cheat on me TWICE, and i allowed you to treat me like shit and rape me multiple time a month within that year plus of being together. I do not deserve to be disrespected in the way you disrespected me and my body. My feelings matter. You don’t get to take a “No, I don’t want to have sex today” or a “No, i feel uncomfortable with that” and then beg me to continue, or make me say no more times than i can count on my hands and then continue anyways. I worked hard on our relationship, and i truly wanted to make you happy. A week before we broke up, you told me you had started talking to our mutual ex again. When i told you that made me uncomfortable, you decided to disregard that, and you made my worst fears that i had told myself were unreasonable into reality. You went on a date with her before we even broke up, and you cancelled our date and broke up with me that day so that you could go on a date with her. You treated me like trash that needed to be taken out. I matter. I am worth something. You don’t get to do that to me and then tell me that you care about me. If you cared about me, you wouldn’t have completely disrespected me the entire time we were dating. I am better than what you’ve done to me and how you’ve treated me. I never meant to make your parents hate me, but they didn’t raise you to be this way to people. Date-rape isn’t okay, and i was never making things up. I’m sorry for whatever i’ve done to hurt you, but it didn’t warrant you treating me in the way you have for over a year. I’m more beautiful, nicer, kinder, and better than you EVER will be.