I know we don’t talk and for so long I wanted to use this website but never could find myself to until now.
I want to say thank you because I was always so scared to because saying thank you for everything meant I had fully let you go and accepted everything and now this is the place I am in..
Thank you for ending this because when I look back it was the best thing you could have done for both of us. I know it was a rough breakup and it went on for so long and things got so crazy at one point you really truly made everything better in the end. All the fighting was too much and we both turned into people neither of us ever thought we could be.
When I turned 21 I remember feeling so incredibly grateful for my life and especially my family and friends. They made the weekend incredible for me and did so much for me. I was so happy and I’m still so happy. It took me a year to get over you but it just proves we grow as people. The weekend after I was sitting down with my friend and we talked and you came up and my friend told me I had come so far and made up for so much lost time and I knew I was back and the old me had finally returned. I was always so scared of leaving you, I had no life apart from you and how was that right. My life has blossomed into something that I should have always have and you too. Even I told my housemates who don’t even know you but we went wrong somewhere and they made that point. I’m truly blessed to have all these new people in my life, the friends I made since, the things I have done. You gave me my life back, you gave me my freedom back and for that I’m so grateful to you for. Maybe we weren’t mature enough for our relationship or maybe we moved too fast but whatever it was it ended and it did for the best. I have my life back and I’m sure you’re doing great things with yours too.
I’m genuinely at my best these days And I hope you are also. You have been genuine to me even when I couldn’t be. I know you made mistakes but I’ll never hold anything against you no matter what and anything you were ever scared of just know Iv erased it from my mind because when you silenced me and ignore me I knew that was the worst thing you could have ever done to me at the time and as angry and as hurt I was over that i still didn’t say anything. I tried to hurt you and I’ll never be able fully explain that.
I know you probably have someone new in your life and I never want you to feel you can’t because I will always want you to be happy. I’m with someone atm and I suppose maybe that’s part of moving on and forgetting. You’ll always be my first love but I now know you can truly overcome the things you never thought you would. I’m a lot more chilled about everything because i have learned from my mistakes and I owe it to you. I know I won’t ever make the same mistakes with anyone else. Everything happens for a reason. All the memories we had used to make me cry because I wanted them all back but now I can’t help but feel so happy that we ever had them memories. It was an emotional rollercoaster but I did really love you and for every bad day we had I still could look at you and love you. I craved a love so deep but I just couldn’t with you.
Although we don’t love each other like that anymore, I think we will always get each other.
Thank you for giving me the best life and showing me that time does heal. I’ll always wish we could have been friends now because I truly respect you and all your decisions. But the truth is I can’t make you forgive me and I never will expect it from you.
Thank you for giving me the chance to fall for someone , thank you for letting me go because you have made me so so happy. You’re an amazing person and I wish you so much happiness and that one day you will feel the way I do.
Take care x