shani,

i love you

i am not allowed to say it anymore

but i love you, and that’s all that really matters..

i know what you have done, you have sent me out into the world and told me ‘do something, learn something’ and you have locked the door behind me.

i have learned and seen things that i have so badly wanted to share with you, but i understand why i cant. it would defy the point of me doing it for myself. i understand this lesson shani, so much, and although i may not have you, you gave me the world and a freedom i have never felt. i swear on my soul, i will evolve from this, and in another time, maybe another life, i will be ready and i will sweep you off your feet and never let go of you.

my never-ending love
ryan