Dear Mason,

I just wanted to say sorry and apologize for you having to stay with someone like me. We were together for almost 2 years, I miss your laugh, your smile, your silly faces, everything. I hated how I always had to ask myself does he really love me, is he just faking his love? I always needed reassurance, but you rarely said i love you first, I was the one that always had to say it first.

When you broke up with me which was May, I was at my lowest that moment and I didnt want you to leave me but you did. You told me you weren’t ready for a relationship but how? How were you not ready for a relationship if we were dating for almost 2 years? I never understood how you treated me so cute and lovely, those were the best days. The other day you acted sour and barely showed me attention, I really miss you and I dont know why.

I know you’re the one for me, I can never stop thinking about you, you’re always on my mind twenty four seven. After all those late night calls/texts, after all our hugs, kisses, love, and affection, and even our times spent hanging out at the mall, movies and etc your fine with just being strangers again. I want you to know that you made me feel the feeling called “love”  after 4 years. 

Im so sorry you had to stay with me, Im such a depressed person. I always questioned myself why me? Why not all these other pretty girls with such an amazing body and face etc. You choose me for some reason, im back to my old self now unfortunately. I really wish I could express my love with you again, your so unique, I loved how you didn’t even have a girl best friend or super close to girls. You are super loyal and kind, it’s really unfortunate that I lost you.

Every night I ask myself was I worth it? Was I good enough? Did I do anything wrong? I’m sorry for all those times I cried and was mad but never told you. Well it was because of you, I felt so unloved but you always told me your fear was loosing me and well look how the tables flipped. I dont know what happened, all I know is that COVID-19 ruined my life and everybody else’s too.

After all, I wish I could’ve hugged you harder and kissed you for the last time, little did I know that was my last hug with you. You’re hugs, and smile always made my day brighter even if it was the darkest of the darkest days, you’re love was enough brighten my day up. I miss hearing you’re voice, random texts and calls. I love you to the moon and back Mason.

Overall I won’t the I love you more fight and everything else. There’s way more I want to tell you but these are the main things.                                               
From: Vicky